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Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
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9:29 pm
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Im stuck on this guy I met at the club a few weeks ago.. his name is casper ..he is from new orleans and he is leaving saturday and wont be back for two months..
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8:16 pm
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 | You scored as Sex God. You are a master at sex. You make your partner weak in the knees, and you know it. You've had the practice, and you've read the books, but don't get too cocky (pun intended) or you'll get put into place.
Sex God | | 83% | A Slave To BDSM | | 63% | A Romantic | | 58% | Virgin | | 50% | </td>
How are you in bed
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| Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
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12:31 am - revised..
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False Comforts July 4, 2005
When I think about thinking about all the things that are bothering me
I begin breathing hard and my heart
It feels as if it is going to jump out of my throat
My eyes start to water
I draw in a deep breath and focus
Focus my eyes to hide unwelcome tears
I lie in bed thinking
Suddenly I wont be able to calm myself
My heart races
I'm afraid I'm unable to stop and control my thoughts
Anxiety
I'm scared I will begin hopelessly crying
I'll never be able to come to
I hold back, save my tears
Stored tears
Moist eyes, no tears
A relative dies, I feel indifference
Lovers quarrel, I feel numb
Focus
focus my eyes, no tears
Heartbeat heightens, worried stirred
Pulse quickens, breathe
Shed a tear, the room will flood
Calm yourself, slow breaths
Wrapped limbs around false comfort, pillows
Wrap tighter to remember being held
It will be you who will let go before the pillow
Breathe, Focus
No worries, no tears
Soft breaths, false comforts
current mood:  okay
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| Monday, July 4th, 2005
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3:43 am
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When I think that if I think about all the things that are bothering me I start breathing hard and my heart feels like its going to jump out of my throat My eyes start to water and I breathe in and focus my eyes to hide the unwelcomed tears I get scared that I wont be able to calm down That my heart will keep on racing and I wont be able to stop thinking that I will start crying and never be able to stop
current mood:  restless
current music: GreenDay- Good Riddance
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| Sunday, June 26th, 2005
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1:24 am
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| Sunday, March 13th, 2005
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11:13 pm
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| Sunday, January 9th, 2005
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1:08 am - In a happy state of mind...
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I'm back with Andrew. I've been back with him since December-ish. I love him so much. He lives close by now so I can see him whenever I want. I've been there everyday since he moved in. It's nice just hanging out with him without going places and thinking the only way to have a good time is by spending money. It's not always.
I start at FCCJ Monday. I'm kind of nervous. Its almost been a year since I've been in school. Ekk.********************8
I've seen some movies lately. Some were good, some were bad.
The Grude- Boring, but the beginning with the guy was hilarious, the best part of the movie.
Meet The Fockers- Hilarious, "assss hooole"
Darkness- Cheesy.. ooooh cant be in the dark or you'll die.. "It's not over.. " Ha
White Noise- Good/Fair...Kinda creepy, it had its moments.. Surprise ending
Well, thats it for now.
******************I went and felt like a fool.. My VR teacher told me it was paid for, it wasnt..
current mood:  complacent
current music: Green Day- Maria
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| Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
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8:53 pm
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I'm single again. Yay!
current mood:  hopeful
current music: "with this knife" smile empty soul
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| Saturday, October 16th, 2004
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11:33 pm - literally living off tips
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Well damn
Every things going to shit.
About last week my boyfriend, Andrew's, car went to shit. It needs a new clutch. That runs about $300.
We've been bumming my mom's car since...
welll.. since today, we can no longer borrow it. Andrew was delivering a pizza today and he got into an accident.
A man driving out of ABC's liquer T-boned him. The whole bumper came off and is now in the back seat of my mom's mirage. We have to pay like 500-1,000 dollars for some shit that we dont think insurance will cover.
We have to wait until Friday when we get our checks for Andrew to get his clutch fixed. This will use my whole paycheck and half of his. His paycheck isnt going to be as much as usual because he cant finish the rest of the week at work because he has no car.
so.. yeah..
good news: I made 30$ in tips today working 11:30-4 yay!
current mood:  bored
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| Saturday, August 14th, 2004
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11:25 am - Well damn...
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My life has done a 360.
- job
- boyfriend
- not going to D.C. for college
- live-in boyfriend (yes, same guy)
- going to enroll in FCCJ then later go to UNF. All for F R E EEEEEEEEE!
current mood: content
current music: Smile Empty Soul- Track 10
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| Thursday, July 29th, 2004
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1:51 pm
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  Angel Yarbrough,
Your long-term plans have suffered at various times in your life. Even now, there are things you'd love to do, but you think you may not ever get the chance. This kind of self-limited thinking can be the very obstacle to your success. Take a long and deep look into family issues that have brought you pain. Try to understand their impact on your current life. If you can be as serious about your future as you are about your past, you'll be able to overcome your own sense of inadequacy.
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1:22 am
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me gots za boyfriend.
current mood:  giddy
current music: 93.3.. some song
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| Sunday, July 25th, 2004
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10:58 pm - Wow
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The Art of Gratitude
Ascribed to Chief Tecumseh
Live your life so that the fear of death can never enter your heart. When you arise in the morning, give thanks for the morning light. Give thanks for your life and strength. Give thanks for your food and for the joy of living. And if perchance you see no reason for giving thanks, rest assured the fault is in yourself.
current mood: touched
current music: SVU
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| Saturday, July 24th, 2004
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8:50 pm
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Detachment From Things
Thomas Merton
The importance of detachment from things, the importance of poverty, is that we are supposed to be free from things that we might prefer to people. Wherever things have become more important than people, we are in trouble. That is the crux of the whole matter.
current mood:  awake
current music: Hope Floats on ABC
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| Friday, July 23rd, 2004
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2:17 am
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I start work tmw! yay for me!
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| Monday, July 19th, 2004
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3:57 pm
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Get Out!
Henry David Thoreau
We need the tonic of wildness, to wade sometimes in marshes where the bittern and the meadow-hen lurk, and hear the booming of the snipe; to smell the whispering sedge where only the wilder and more solitary fowl builds her nest, and the mink crawls with its belly close to the ground. At the same time that we are earnest to explore and learn all things, we require that all things be mysterious and unexplorable, that land and sea be infinitely wild, unsurveyed and unfathomed by us because unfathomable. We can never have enough of nature. We must be refreshed by the sight of inexhaustible vigor, vast and titanic features, the sea-coast with its wrecks, the wilderness with its living and its decaying trees, the thunder cloud, and the rain which lasts three weeks and produces freshets. We need to witness our own limits transgressed, and some life pasturing freely where we never wander.
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| Thursday, July 15th, 2004
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3:57 am
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2:33 am - Hmm Interesting..
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| Wednesday, July 14th, 2004
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1:05 am
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12:33 am
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Ha.. These things are sooo inaccurate..
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